Today I received anointing for several people in my life. It was a lovely event at Nazareth, with the nuns whom I've been celebrating daily Mass for two years, or more, I can't remember.
Both of these events together have impacted me in a very deep way.
During the adoration I kept trying to pray and found that no matter what I did, it simply wasn't happening. Yes, Christ was present in that special way in the Eucharistic Host, but I couldn't get a decent prayer out of my heart! That is very unusual for me, as I love to go to the Adorations. At the end of the third hour I said in my heart, "I will not leave unless you speak to me."
You have everything you need. Your sins are nothing to me. Persevere and endure.
After that I left and came home.
Today I prayed before Mass began for all the people for whom I was going to be anointed. Then came the anointing. I sat down and just...was...that's all...was. I started to try to pray and no thoughts could form. No mind. Only being. It is the closest I have ever come to understanding St. John of the Cross' statement, All my sense were suspended. Only when the intercessions began did I come back to myself, and control of my mind.
What happened? I do not know. Only God can help me understand.
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