St. Matthias

To be perfectly honest this is one of the crappiest days I've had in a very long time. All the stress of the past few weeks, mixed with some really bad news coming in four hours time from three different places, have fallen in on me today. No matter how many times I remind myself that I am not defined by how I feel, I know perfectly well that right now, I feel terrible.

Complaining does no good so I'll talk instead about what I'm doing to combat this day of misery of exquisite torture. I go into my prayer room, place myself before God, and sit quietly. Does it help? Not particularly, but then again I don't pray to get instant relief anyway. Then why do it? Because it does remind me that I am not alone in this. While I still feel pretty darn miserable, I know that Christ is with me, and that the prayers of many friends, fellow LCG, monks and nuns, are with me, holding me in the light before God, just as I hold them in that same light.

The apostles must have felt pretty bad too, when they realized that they had to replace a traitor, Judas, with someone, and then God helped them choose Matthias. So I am not giving up, or giving in, just blogging about my day.