Shingles and Arteries

My blog has been on the low end of my priorities lately. This week I was diagnosed with shingles, and given medication. Nearly four days later no eruption of shingles has appeared, but my left eye is growing increasingly light sensitive, and sore. This has me worried.

It is important to state right now that I have absolute trust in God to take care of me, no matter what happens to me. And yet...I am afraid. They tested today for possible temporal artery blockage. So far, no news is good news. No matter what it is, something is going wrong with my nervous system and my eye, and I am scared. It is human to be scared, and I freely admit it.

This fear comes from the unknown, and the unknown is a very apt metaphor for faith and the spiritual life. A priest once said that when he asked people what they think would happen if they gave their entire life to God, that they almost all said they would get cancer. Why? Fear of the unknown. So we link up what we fear most with letting our lives be in God's hands. This is the leap of faith each human must make: do I or do I not, believe?

I have made my leap. I believe. Have you?