Ha! Fooled Ya!

I bet you all though: "Whew, he's finally stopped." Wrong!

I am headache free and seemingly shingle free. I do not recommend the shingles to anyone. What really stinks is there is no way to prevent them. Oh well. Offer it up, as we Catholics love to say.

So getting back into my daily grind has been tough because I have only 5% more energy than the day before. What that means is that I'm able to go another half hour longer than yesterday before I have to just give up. Still, I say my prayers, and offer it up.

Offer it up seems to be the theme today, and a good theme it is. When I was in the full shingles meat grinder headache mode, my thinking was less than solid. However, somewhere in the middle of it I did manage to get the prayer out, "if this can help someone else, then please by all means, Lord, use it for them." It didn't help my headache, but it did help me to bear it a little easier.

And then there are days like today, where it seems I have the Midas touch in reverse: everything I touch does NOT turn into gold, but into sewage. Then the Lord helps me see that I am guilty of three of the seven deadly sins, and that's not happy-clappy realization of self. So, I offer that up too. Why? Because I was given the grace to see the sins within me, and to form a plan of dealing with them -- which I guarantee involves many hours of prayer -- so that I can live ever closer to God.

That's all I want. Why is it so hard to do?